December 2009
Wanna know a secret?
I cut myself on the glass of these picture frames
Because the pictures stay the same
And none of us do.
Maybe some of the magic will be preserved in my bloodstream
And I can stay a little girl forever.
So I make the marks
And let the bad out
Make it go away.
Make me go away.
Fallen Angel, your terminal high. Feeding the...
So I’ve completely relapsed.
I kind of quit caring. Seems pointless. I plan to be back to double digits by the end of February, March at latest. I will be a good girl. I start school January 4th, and that’s also when I start restricting again.
“You’ve gotta a lot of lot of nerve
Coming here when I’m still with...”
– Again Again~ Lady Gaga
Post-positional phrases.
Maybe we can.
Maybe we can’t.
Maybe we will.
But maybe we won’t.
Should would could
Might
Must have
Never, maybe
Forever is dead.
“Sad” and “mad”
Are now only fads
Fashionable
Like cocaine, dark circles
Blood red lips
Leave kisses,try to fix
Unfixable
Broken
You.
Me.
Us.
We.
Always.
Never.
Have to.
Can’t.
Love.
Hate.
Love.
...
MAKEITSTOP
“You take your clothes off right after school The tea is on, the flame is blue You hope this won’t take all afternoon The TV’s waiting to talk to you It’s your naked body on white velour But there’s no feeling, just weight on you You get nauseous now as he speaks to you Such proper language for acts so cruel He says “We all follow the rules We can’t very...
Who Are You?
Days blur together. Time goes by, but not at a stable rate. It’s always too fast or too slow. Memories have been flooding my mind the past few days. Just now another. So many fill my head; thinking about it and typing this just makes them leak faster and faster. I’m trying to get back in touch with my thoughts. I’ve been carefully blank for too long. It’s no way to live....
“I could help myself to something Like a little bit of revelation You could be...”
– Mahogany~Snow Patrol
Have You Ever
Given your all to someone
Who walked away?
Well
Have you ever had someone
Give you everything
Sadly had to shake your head
Because it wasn’t enough
And been the one
To find those steps
To nowhere
And hope you could
Breathe again
Knowing you just
Killed a child.
Four Letter Word
Melody Of heartbeat Sighing breath Creaking leather beneath my cheek Ambrosial Aroma of his air His skin His hair Electricity Of the glimmering reflection Momentary flash Light on In his eye Lips and nose and cheek Whisper softly Communicate with mine The secrets and answers and questions Of love and life and all universal We are small We are nothing We are immense We are everything that matters...
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– I’m not asking for p e r f e c t. I’m not asking you to never hurt me, and I’m not asking you to make me your whole world. I don’t believe it can always be uncomplicated, and I’m okay with a little chaos. All I’m asking is for you to care about me enough to think...
